The Blogger I don't Want to Be

I don't want to be the blogger that makes everything seem unattainable

I don't want to be the blogger with a curated life

I don't want to be the blogger with all the answers

I don't want to be the blogger someone else wants to become

I don't want to be the blogger that has the Top 10 Time Saving Solutions

I don't want to be the blogger with the perfect Instagram page

I don't want to be the blogger that can't post unless it's perfect

I don't want to be the blogger looking for her next book deal

I don't want to be the blogger on the bandwagon

I don't want to be the blogger telling you how to do what you do

I don't want to be the blogger with perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect whatever

I don't want to be the blogger with the perfectly styled home

I don't want to be the blogger who has everything

I don't want to be the blogger who isn't honest

I don't want to be the blogger that other bloggers think bloggers should be.

I don't.  I don't want all of these things.  I don't want my instagram feed to be perfectly styled photos of perfectly styled desks filled with perfectly filtered light while my perfectly, perfect LE starbucks cup perches perfectly over a few gold bangles that perfectly accent the tray of perfumes situated next to the perfectly, perfect set of peonies.  I don't want that.  I want grainy photos, I want dishes in the sink (as much as I don't want them!).  I want a simple life and to show that a simple life can be amazing.  I want to share what I've learned because I couldn't find it to learn it. I want to share what I know because a candle loses none of it's flame by lighting another.  I want to be a blogger that seems average, relatable.  I want to have the life you have.  I want you to see the life I have is very near to the life you have.

I want to be myself, and I want to share it with you.

Dirty dishes, grainy photos, curse words, random posts, messy desk, and all.  I want to be a person like every other person because I don't want others to feel that anyone is better than them.  We all put our pants on one leg at a time, we all learned to walk while holding our parents' hands, we all learned to speak from someone else.  No one is better or worse than you, no matter what their instagram feed says.

I just wanted to share these thoughts with you tonight because I'm getting really sick seeing others being so perfectly perfect and insisting that to be a blogger you must be so perfectly perfect too.  Life isn't perfectly filtered photos of shit.  Life is capturing your child as he sleeps and looks exactly as you imagined, life is taking a horrible picture because it's the only one you can get before the moment is over, life is about learning and being creative, life is about living, imperfectly.  I think if you want to blog, blog.  If you want to do, do.  Be the best you can at it...and if you're interests change...then dive head first and learn.  Nothing is stoping you from doing anything, at whatever pace.  Bloggers have gotten twice as far as I have in half as much time....but that means nothing to me, because I'm happy at my pace.  I'm not racing anyone but myself.  The only person I need to be better than is the person I was yesterday.

I like the simple life I have with my simple blog.  And I like sharing things like this with you - real life, real feeling, a real person just blogging.

xoxo, Moe